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Catastrophic. It's the screech-hiss from hell, and could probably break glass. Jul 31, 2022

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    1. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Catastrophic. It's the screech-hiss from hell, and could probably break glass.
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      3. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Thank you for your kind words Leila.
        Jul 31, 2022
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      4. TracyJS
        TracyJS
        I know that screech-hiss from hell. So sharp it could shatter glass. Catastrophic tinnitus is devastating. I’m so sorry.
        Jul 31, 2022
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      5. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Thank you TracyJS. Wish I had a cat to hug right now :)
        Jul 31, 2022
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    2. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      I thought this was bad a year ago?! Ha! Mere child's play compared to today.
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    3. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Very nervous of upcoming air travel.Short-hauls so smaller (noisier?) planes; have muffs, EarPlanes,1st class seats.Train/car not options :(
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      2. Ken219
        Ken219
        You're protecting the best you can. Hopefully uneventful flight
        Mar 24, 2022
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    4. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      I really *need* to go to a concert--a loud AF concert. To "feel" some noise. I'm tired of earplugs and earmuffs and thinking about dB levels
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      2. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        This is exactly how I feel. It just isn’t fair :(
        Feb 10, 2022
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      3. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        I miss feeling the bass hit the back of my car seat as I'm cruising through the mountains.
        Feb 10, 2022
      4. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        I posted this when I realized I cannot see my favorite artist, who is playing two shows near me. I've never missed a show. Recalling his past concerts (and yes, the bass that resounds and transports me...sigh!) brought out anger and frustration.
        Feb 10, 2022
    5. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      I've realized my tinnitus worsens about every three months. Each time I settle in, relax and accept it, then BAM. It's exhausting.
      1. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        Same
        Jan 23, 2022
    6. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      I love animals but am beginning to hate dogs. Barking and T do not get along. I'm screwed.
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      2. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        We should hate the dog owners who refuse to control their dogs...
        Aug 19, 2021
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    7. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      T still spiked and today it was exacerbated by everyday life in NYC. Mentally I'm a wreck. Sleep s*cks. I'm a shell of my former self.
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      2. twa
        twa
        So very sorry, I can imagine how loud NYC is on a daily basis. Dallas is not much better with the never-ending barrage of loud trucks and leaf blowers. I hope things will settle down for you.
        May 15, 2021
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      3. Guywithapug
        Guywithapug
        Hopefully your spike subsides soon and you can have some mental tranquility!!!
        May 15, 2021
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      4. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Thank you all for your kind words and support. It really means a lot. Sometimes I feel so alone because nobody else understands.
        May 16, 2021
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    8. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Tomorrow I go under anesthesia. Trying to stay calm, but fear worsening tinnitus. Although, I've read others had a temporary reduction!
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      3. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Hard to say for sure, but I would say it did not. There were other issues later on that I believe did have a lasting impact. That said, I hope I don't need anesthesia anytime soon.
        Jan 18, 2022
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      4. FlatDarkEarth
        FlatDarkEarth
        Thanks. I may be getting shoulder surgery this year and have been concerned about the Anesthesia
        Jan 19, 2022
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      5. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        You're welcome. I hope your surgery goes well.
        Jan 20, 2022
    9. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      F-you T, for giving me "anesthesia anxiety". Propofol or Fentanyl/midazolam - TBD. It's bad enough I'm anxious about the procedure.
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    10. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Does sleep get easier as the days... weeks... months... drag on?
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      3. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        @GBB I've determined it would be a cold day in hell before my doctors prescribe a sleeping pill. It's infuriating.
        Mar 3, 2021
      4. Kriszti
        Kriszti
        Generally, yes. I still sleep bad, but it's not even comperable to the first weeks/months when I slept 1-3 hours waking up a lot. My profile posts are witnesses to that. Keep holding on!
        Mar 3, 2021
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      5. twa
        twa
        Yes, I average 6.5 a night.
        Apr 22, 2021
    11. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      T was loud but livable the past few days; last night it spiked so no sleep and stressed. Need the Lexapro but even more nervous to take it
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      2. KWC
        KWC
        @tracyNYC I hear ya. My tinnitus is louder today than yesterday (I do continuous background sound). Still staring at the zoloft but am also tapering klonopin so its possible that could make it louder. No idea what to pursue.

        kwc
        Feb 26, 2021
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      3. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        I'm going to try supplements first (L-theanine for example), and maybe with the warmer weather approaching, I will get me out of my apartment to exercise, which will improve my mood. ADs need to be our last resort. Good luck! Keep me posted.
        Mar 2, 2021
    12. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Staring at my new bottle of Lexapro I'm tied up in knots. Do I or don't I? Damn ototoxicity. Try to help myself but everything carries risk
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      2. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        ugh I know the feeling. I have a bottle of Zoloft sitting in the cabinet. I took one and then freaked out and never continued.
        Feb 20, 2021
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      3. KWC
        KWC
        @tracyNYC @kingsfan @aot did you guys ever take the SSRI. I have Zoloft to but have not taken it and already on Klonopin.
        Feb 22, 2021
      4. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        @KWC - I haven't taken it.
        Feb 23, 2021
    13. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      ... wearing earplugs with loud T is a less than pleasant experience. :( 2/2
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      3. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Your internal white noise machine! Maybe I will get used to it. Perhaps because I'm nervous about loud sounds, I make it worse on myself.
        Feb 16, 2021
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      4. starrynights
        starrynights
        What was the cause of your T btw?
        Mar 1, 2021
      5. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Years of loud music, concerts, headphones and earbuds. And then recently some one-off acoustic incidents which took me to a whole new level of T hell.
        Mar 2, 2021
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    14. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      @starrynights Hi! I don't have a reply option yet! I'm sad the city I love has turned against me and I must wear earplugs when out and...1/2
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      3. starrynights
        starrynights
        Which ones do you wear? Also which part of NYC do you live in, if you don't mind me asking? I'm on the Upper West Side, pretty loud up here especially in the Spring and Summer. Ha, oh boy.
        Mar 1, 2021
      4. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Hi @starrynights ! I have customs plugs, but mostly use 3M skull screws. They plug me up really well LOL. I too am on the Upper West Side -- near the touristy area of Strawberry Fields, so yeah, it does get noisy over here. I'm constantly on guard. The subway worries me, even with protection. But I can't walk everywhere, and Uber is breaking my bank!
        Mar 2, 2021
      5. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Oh, and I'm looking for a new apartment (hope to stay in the UWS), which is not going to be easy in my current T state. Ugh.
        Mar 2, 2021
    15. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      I protect my ears, but life happens. Severe T has now broken me. Am forced to discuss anti-depressants w/ doctor and beg for sleeping pills.
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      2. Ilias T
        Ilias T
        I relate a lot. Are you actually in NYC? It's pretty loud there
        Feb 13, 2021
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    16. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      It's getting harder to concentrate at work with this screaming tinnitus. I fear being forced to quit, or worse yet, getting fired.
      1. Watasha
        Watasha
        Check with your companies leave of absence and disability programs. Contact HR, you may be entitled to relief, even for depression. (if applicable)
        Feb 11, 2021
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    17. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Right ear is shrieking. It feels plugged or I've lost hearing?! Why does my T continue to worsen? What am I doing wrong? It can't take this.
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      2. Ilias T
        Ilias T
        Yesterday I got a spike that went for about 2 hours. My reason was probably sugar. I realized that I ate over 100 grams sugar!!! That's insane for 1 day. Never again. Maybe that might help you. Out of all my days it spiked when I ate all that sugar. I'm confident it's a trigger when it's too much.
        Feb 5, 2021
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    18. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Hearing aids adjusted last week to increase highs, now T is higher/sharper. Each time I try to help myself I fail. I want to die.
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      2. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        Had mone adjusted higher today. Be patient our stupid brains are adjusting. We got this!
        Jan 28, 2021
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    19. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Last night my left ear spiked, where it remains. It's beyond severe and I'm depressed. Will I ever accept/habituate/sleep?! Therapy @ 3 EST
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      2. Drachen
        Drachen
        I wish you the best with your therapy. I particularly hope you see an individual who is more interested in your care and well-being than they are taking your (or the insurance company's) money. It's something I am still considering, but I have yet to find anyone like that.
        Jan 26, 2021
      3. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        @Drachen, Thank you so much for responding. I'm hoping that therapy will help with my distressed, catastrophizing brain. I always "what if" myself to death.
        Jan 26, 2021
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      4. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Finding a mental health professional was difficult (most were not accepting new patients), and I gave up early on trying to find one with tinnitus experience. This individual at least ticks off a few of the other "experience boxes" I was looking for. Not sure about her integrity yet. I hope you find the health care professional(s) you are looking for.
        Jan 26, 2021
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    20. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      I have no life and I've put my dreams on hold. All I do is fixate on how T has negatively impacted me. Must try therapy; first appt is tmrw.
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      3. twa
        twa
        Hang in there. I hope you have a good appointment.
        Jan 25, 2021
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      4. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Thank you, Drachen. This is the biggest challenge I've ever been given, but if I don't get it together, my life will be upended. At this stage of my life, that is terrifying.
        Jan 25, 2021
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      5. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Thank you all for your kind words.
        Jan 25, 2021
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    21. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      My hearings aids can't mask the constant high-pitched screech. This is exhausting.
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      3. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        No. Too high-pitched and intrusive now. Maybe I’ll find a noise app that will help... FX-322 is suddenly centuries away
        Jan 23, 2021
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      4. aot
        aot
        Try ReSound Tinnitus Relief app by GN Resound. Helped me a bunch!
        Jan 24, 2021
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      5. tracyNYC
        tracyNYC
        Thanks, I will look into that!
        Jan 24, 2021
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    22. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Dropped a dinner knife on a hardwood floor which I convince myself worsened T = more anxiety, making it louder, and round and round we go
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      2. Drachen
        Drachen
        The psychological aspect of this symptom can be so utterly irrational at times.
        Jan 20, 2021
      3. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        I was the same. However, I've now learnt to do the opposite and convince myself that it hasn't worsen my T. So even if it does give me a spike, I'm not bothered by it. I know it's easier said than done, but just try shrug it off and be like, "Oh well. If it spikes it spikes" - because there's nothing you can do about it once it's happened anyway.
        Jan 20, 2021
      4. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        I definitely have mini spikes throughout the day because of doors slamming etc. They can't be helped and we can't let this condition rule us. Stay strong x
        Jan 20, 2021
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    23. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      T is now very severe. Anxiety at an all-time high. Doc. prescribed nortriptyline but I worry it could worsen T, which I could not handle.
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      2. GBB
        GBB
        I'm on it and it didn't worsen my T. That being said there is definitely precedent for it doing so. I wish you luck in whatever you decide.
        Jan 16, 2021
      3. wwtsai
        wwtsai
        Did you end up taking the nortriptyline? I'm at the same crossroads and hesitant on taking it.
        Feb 18, 2021
    24. tracyNYC
      tracyNYC
      Had 12 years of mild to moderate habituated T, and recently two back-to-back noise events severely worsened it. WTF!
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      2. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Temporary spikes can last over three months (but normally begin to fade after 4-6 weeks).
        Jan 9, 2021
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    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    NY NY
    Tinnitus Since:
    2009-2020 habituated; 1/2021 - severe
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Noise; hearing loss
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