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Strawberryblonde

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Watching people walk past my window wearing headphones is making me green with envy. I miss my old past time doing that. Sep 26, 2022 at 10:28 AM

    1. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Watching people walk past my window wearing headphones is making me green with envy. I miss my old past time doing that.
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      2. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        For me I have double feelings about it. I envy the carefree-ness of it, but I also cant help thinking that at some point some of them will probably be struck by these conditions and suffer so badly from it, and I cant prevent it, cause most people dont care. They only care once they are hit and then maybe its too late.
        Sep 26, 2022 at 1:16 PM
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      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        @TheDanishGirl correct. Unless one experiences this then there is no way too fully explain to them how it feels. Words don't do it justice. I do miss how carefree and in my own world it felt. Nothing else quite compares for me now.
        Sep 26, 2022 at 3:58 PM
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    2. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      I love hearing church bells ringing away on Sunday morning. But not when it's coming from your own ear :-P.
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      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        Thanks @Forever hopeful. Struggling to mask it at night as its become slightly reactive which I hope will die down too. Think I've overprotected too much and my hyperacusis has worsened.
        How is your spike today?.
        Sep 25, 2022 at 12:16 PM
      4. Forever hopeful
        Forever hopeful
        @Strawberryblonde, Spike is no better. Thanks for asking. Can’t mask at all. I used to have spikes this bad but I always knew that they would get better so I never really freaked out -never lasted long. This is now 17 days. I’m so afraid of sound now that I agree with you that we may in fact be overprotecting when we shouldn’t. My only symptom of hyperacusis is reactivity.
        Sep 25, 2022 at 6:44 PM
      5. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        Maybe this spike is just taking longer to recalibrate back to normal. You were very well protected, plugs, took breaks at the concert etc. Don't think that it'll never go down as that'll just reinforce it. Silly as it sounds with T, but I still think one day mine will get better and it keeps me going. You've healed twice before and you can do it again it may just take longer this time :).
        Sep 25, 2022 at 9:09 PM
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    3. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      My bf has high pitched tinnitus in one ear that can't be masked (according to him). Doesn't faze him at all. I need to be like him!!
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      3. CRGC
        CRGC
        Missing in this brain too.
        Sep 23, 2022 at 6:55 PM
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      4. Forever hopeful
        Forever hopeful
        Me too. How does he do it? What is wrong with my brain?
        Sep 25, 2022 at 11:04 AM
      5. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        He told me as as there's nothing he can do about (he has some hearing loss in that ear), that he just doesnt let it bother him. I guess he's fully habituated as he can fall asleep in an instant.
        Sep 25, 2022 at 12:19 PM
    4. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Does anyone else's ringing get louder when they lie down in bed? It's not this bad when I am up right and standing.
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      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        Think it's become reactive as it seems to compete with whatever noise I'm playing at night. Too loud and all over the place to listen to without noise. So no sleep for me last night. Absolutely shattered. Had it since Monday night out of nowhere :(.
        Sep 23, 2022 at 8:49 AM
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      4. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        I'm sorry. I know how your feeling. Loosing sleep is absolutely the worst. T is hard enough to manage with good/decent sleep. Since my T became reactive in May I've had to re-jigger my process. I hope you find something that works for you SOON! Don't forget to use your toolbox. You have some experience managing T already.
        Sep 23, 2022 at 3:14 PM
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      5. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        My old T was so easy never changed just got better and forgetful over the years. Until the idiot I am messed up when I had something soo good. Guilt feeding the anxiety and frightened itll be this way forever more. Trying to think positive. Thankyou @BrOKeN_1
        Sep 23, 2022 at 7:01 PM
    5. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Out in the garden listening to nature and its very relaxing. The birds and the breeze is a great masker :-).
    6. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Think my TMJ is playing havoc with the left ear as can't think of any other triggers out of the norm. Hmm bloody well annoying. :-(
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    7. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Ringing woke me out my sleep last night after having a fair few quiet days in a row and sleeping in near silence (low sound masking).
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    8. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      I think I need a little break from here and try not to fucus on my T as much as possible. Need to distract and focus elsewhere :-).
      1. Joe Cuber
        Joe Cuber
        May you have many things to focus on. Any hobbies?
        Sep 10, 2022
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    9. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Does crying/stress induced ringing go away or lessen eventually? Atrocious tonight and feeling pretty desperate.
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      2. Charburchar
        Charburchar
        I'm sorry you're having a bad night @Strawberryblonde :( Fwiw of all the success stories i've read I would surmise that the rate of recovery is higher for those with stress-induced T vs others
        Sep 9, 2022
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      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        Unfortunately mine is acoustic induced made worse by noise/antidepressants and seemingly getting worse lately.
        Sep 9, 2022
    10. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Does crying/anxiety induced ear ringing ever go away? Over two weeks now. Atrocious tonight.
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    11. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      When you plug your ears and hear/feel a rumbling/vibration is it to do with blood pressure or just a normal thing?
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      2. Gabriel5050
        Gabriel5050
        I think it's normal to hear a low rumble.
        Aug 28, 2022
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      3. SamRosemary
        SamRosemary
        Not sure but I noticed this too. Also if I had earplugs in and push the area in front of my ears.
        Aug 28, 2022
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    12. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      My God the ringing has gotten so loud in a few hours. Can't sleep and it's riding over my masking noises. WTF. Can't handle this. So tired.
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      3. Joe Cuber
        Joe Cuber
        Glad you got some sleep. I listen to nature sounds on YouTube while I sleep, they help a lot. I see in your other comments you're trying to avoid meds. Do you have concerns about taking an anti-anxiety med?
        Aug 26, 2022
      4. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        Scared to make my T anymore worse than it is atm. 4 doses of 25mg of amitriptyline I took in May after a bad depression episode caused by a new tone in the ear unfortunately made my old T louder.
        Aug 26, 2022
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      5. Joe Cuber
        Joe Cuber
        Ah that's understandable
        Aug 27, 2022
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    13. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      The morse code ring has now migrated into my right ear. Would love to know what they are trying too tell me with all these maddening beeps.
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      2. Marshall
        Marshall
        high or low freq
        Aug 25, 2022
      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        @Marshall high frequency but not overly high or to loud if you know what i mean, just noticable. Its just on and off really quick. Hoping it'll die down soon.
        Aug 25, 2022
      4. Marshall
        Marshall
        I get these little sparks/pings that always catch my attention. Literally sounds like a shocking noise
        Aug 27, 2022
    14. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Anxiety has been pretty much away this past week but developed a ring in my left ear! Can't win with this its either one or the other :-(
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      2. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        I had T just in my left ear to begin with and then it spread to the right - but now, I can hardly hear it in my right ear because it faded so much. So yours might do too. :)
        Aug 23, 2022
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      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        I sure hope so :-) cause on top of the eeee and hiss sound I have in both ears, i certainly don't want to accommodate another one rent free!! :-) @Steph1710
        Aug 23, 2022
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      4. SamRosemary
        SamRosemary
        Same. It started in my right ear and now I have it in both. The right is quieter and the left is like morse code.
        Aug 24, 2022
    15. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Anybody recommend a natural anti anxiety remedy? I wake up sick to my stomach with fear every morning. Wanna keep off pharmaceuticals.
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      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        1st time mix of headphones chronic stress and tmj thrown in among other things, tinnitus was always mild. 2nd time listened to asmr/podcast on headphones during a low point( stupid I know wasn't thinking straight or at all) then amitriptyline ramped it up to a new level + MRI scan noise @tniuf
        Aug 14, 2022
      4. tniuf
        tniuf
        The causes you listed for the second time don't sound too bad, I don't see why you wouldn't recover from this. Out timelines and ages are similar. Mine was first in 2016 and second 2022, hope to get some intensity reduction or habituation at some point
        Aug 14, 2022
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      5. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        Thanks @tniuf I really need to hear that as it gives me hope. I hold onto it especially during the low times.
        Aug 14, 2022
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    16. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      More aware of my T today, this habituation isn't going well! Miss my old level T I'd give anything to have it back. Anxiety please go away!
    17. Strawberryblonde
      Strawberryblonde
      Anybody else's tinnitus get high pitched at night especially through lack of sleep and stress?
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      2. Joe Cuber
        Joe Cuber
        Yep, mine does under those conditions. It sounds more high-pitched, insistent, and squirrelly.
        Jul 30, 2022
      3. Strawberryblonde
        Strawberryblonde
        Jul 30, 2022
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      4. Joe Cuber
        Joe Cuber
        It is. I've somehow associated it with getting to bed, so it's become a signal for me to sleep, strangely enough, I still don't like it though
        Jul 30, 2022
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  • About

    Gender:
    Female
    Birthday:
    Nov 3, 1991 (Age: 30)
    Location:
    England
    Tinnitus Since:
    1st (12/2015) increase (5/2022)
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    ??? See below.
    List of probably causes first time in December 2015;
    *Headphones
    *TMJD
    *ETD
    *Stress/depression/anxiety
    *Hereditary (mum and nan have it).


    May 2022 increase probably causes;
    *Headphones (used for a few weeks as fell back into my Maladaptive daydreaming ways i fought so hard against for years, Headphones made me feel like i was in my own world (sad I know and incredibly stupid, I wish I fought against it more).
    *Amitriptyline for anxiety 5-10mg Feb to May 2022 on and off then 25mg for chronic anxiety after developing a mild ring in left ear (made original mild T louder after 4 doses).
    *Crying/suicidal ideation gave me ringing in both ears in August 2022 right ear is now ring free or very low.


    Its a daily battle and trying to remain positive :).
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